Finding strength in this beautiful song.

Today is Tuesday. So it will be exactly one day post operation in about 7 hours? Hmm. I really don't know how to feel honestly. Don't know if op is a good or bad thing. I was NEVER ready. Not ready to adjusting and adopting to everything. I can't bend. I need help in most stuffs. Simple things like brushing my teeth- I have to make adjustments to it cause I cannot bend over the sink. lol. I guess all these will pass with time. I'm so sick of feeling pain and sore. The painkillers are slowly losing their effectiveness I feel. AND I AM FREAKING CONSTIPATED. FOR THE LONGEST TIME. 7 days. So imagine a bloated hard heavy stomach and a super straight posture...it strains my back man. Leaving me in soreness and misery. If this is how pregnancy feels like... I need to consider having kids


Haha. Hopefully it will get better la. Trusting God it will. He already gave me a smooth operation so smooth recovery will be mine! Full recovery takes 1 full year but I'm hoping after this 1 month confinement I'll be more independent. Typing this out so hopefully I can document my journey and look back to see how far I've progressed. :)

Oh and I haven't had a good night sleep for the longest time too urgh
Please let me shit now please please pls amen amen amen